As long as I can remember I have been seeking.
I remember when I was 6 years old having two distinct thoughts:
Is this it?
Is this what life is all about?
Most of the grownups in my life seemed somewhere between bored and depressed. I remember thinking, “So I just stay in school and learn a bunch of useless calculus (no offense to those of you who love and use advanced math daily), go to college and suffer in a career for the next 30 years?” Even my child-mind wasn’t convinced that this was really working for anyone around me. I felt lonely and like I was the only one with these nagging questions. I mostly kept them to myself.
I had my first profound spiritual experience at 16 years old. I felt connected to God and to something bigger than myself. I remember, through tears and a full-body tingle, a distinct feeling that I was loved and accepted by God.
If God loved me and would always love me, then I thought I should take a shot at being nice to myself. This camp experience changed my life forever. Most 16 year olds have a spiritual experience and …